do you?

Now that it has been so long, I still wonder what it feels like to be in love.

Does it feel like I’ve butterflies in my stomach?

Does it feel like my chest is going to burst?

Or do I feel the blood gushing through my veins?

So, what doe it feel like to be in love?

You see, it is the feeling that matters.

December 15, 2018 :

We had a conversation for the last time. It was wrecking to hear his voice shatter into pieces as I spoke the following words “I don’t."

I felt nothing that day, yes I cried but I felt nothing that day. I was not sad, I was not angry, I was not happy either.

Today I realise what I was that day. If you have guessed it, well and good but I’ll break it to you,

I was numb.

Ever wondered what it feels like to be numb?

Its devastating , not that it will help you understand how it feels like, just an adjective I had to use .

March 8, 2019 :

I saw him standing, I did get a  déjà  vu earlier that day of the chances of meting him. I did not look at him. My heart was bursting out of my chest. I could feel the blood gushing through my veins. I was anxious.

Today I wonder what made me so vulnerable that day and probably it was something I still do not know.

Vulnerable, what has made you feel so?

 October 11, 2019 :

I broke through something I’ve long been trying to understand.

It is reality.

It is but a leap, so, take it, face the truth. Might not be good all the time but it’s fine.

It’ll pass just know one thing .

Whatever happens in life, happens for a reason. It’s not remotely important for the reason to be good, you don’t want your life to be too good. Or do you?